For several years now I have felt the urge to write about the problems that we encounter in our lives due to a poor self-esteem. I have no doubt in my mind that our self-esteem issues stem from childhood. In my case it was a matter of an acne outbreak at the age of 11 years. This horrible affliction lasted until I was 21 years old and never let up, not once in the ten years that I bore the burden. I still carry the scars - both physically and mentally. Now I know that there are many people out there who have suffered far more than I have - people who were beaten or raped as children, people who were born with physical deformities that nothing can remove and people who never knew the love experienced in a happy home.
That however, is exactly my point! That something as temporary and relatively small as acne can so affect our self-esteem that we carry around the burden for many, many years. Which is exactly what I did. I believed not only that I was ugly, but that I was unlovable and that anyone who said they cared about me probably had some ulterior motive.
I still battle with self-esteem issues, but knowing that God loves me, just as I am, and that He created me, just as I am to fulfill His purposes for my life, gives me the courage to tell that little voice of self-doubt to leave me alone. That I am God's precious child and that I will not waste one more moment of my life allowing negativity to ruin the joy that life has for me.
I hope that you will join me on my journey as I attempt to break down the barriers that hold so many of us back. The fears and phobias that hold us prisoner and prevent us from being all that God has designed us to be.
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